Raging Heart

How dare I am, why must I took a glance into memories I left behind. A blast from the past suddenly appeared in my mind. Just remind me of the painful memories I ever felt. Crying inside restrained deeply in my inward but no tears of sorrow drops in my eyes. In sudden, my whole energy was absorded out of my body.

Here I am, standing in middle of nowhere, struggling for nothing and feeling numb. I just don’t get it, years gone by but the pain still remain the same. Looking you’re happy, my humanity side appears, asking for the fairness,why not even a little bit of happiness, I could get. Just a long journey I step and it seems like heading into nowhere, lead me into a blur view of life.

Never ask me, am I happy ? When the question comes in surface, my heart was crying, what answer should I give ? Crying for things I never have? Missing for someone I don't have it now ? Or be grateful for what I am ? Is this pain just to remind me? I’m still a human.

I just want those memories to disappear, leaving me and go into the darkness and further place. Oh time, please take away my painful tears and give me happiness. Dreams, please be real and giving me encourage again to face a wonderful world resides before me, into my true love